30 January 2011

love the days ♥

wow....!!!!!
"A group" colleagues memang are the crazy kaki
there are so many event before our group go for the off days
sibeh tired becz of lack of sleep
but really enjoy til the peak !!!!!

happy to get know with a gang of crazy colleagues ♥

24th Jan
Be A Star Karaoke
the rooms being crowded by our people
it is a happy day for me
cz i can sing 996 as more as i like
i really ❤ singing so much
i went there with green tea
bcz i told myself i dont want touch any alcohol at all
but at the end
i ady forgot how many bottles of beer been insert to my mouth
so many crazy incident happened
hey !!!!
i din get drunk at all....
i know what im doing
but the crazy fucking things still happened around
diu ~~~~~~~~~~~~~
the function of alcohol will clear somebody mind instead of let people clean up all the sadness
im sad bcz thinking of my dad...><

25th Jan
Ah Yat Abalone
i miss the chance to having a dinner in the luxury restaurant @ genting
i have no choice to FFK bcz of the tiredness of lack of sleep
only rest for 1hrs more then continue with 12hrs working time after a crazy K nite
voiceless bcz of the "beering effect"
fucking tired til my slight are blurring all the time
my mind n my soul are getting out from me
really cant tahan til my eyes close up which is out of my control
finally .....i off to bed earlier...lol

26th Jan
Conaught Pasar Malam
4 cars with around 20 people going down form hill jz for jalan jalan and cari makan
what a huge geng we are
being stick together in the crowded area
really is a nice channel to increase our frenz relationships
like it !!!!
there is 3am but im still in the club with some "ki siao" colleagues after back from downtown
is so relaxing when shaking with each others
is sweating follow by the music
yeah ...!!! damn love it ...
cz what im feel are all happiness
no more sadness
again
it was a drinking nite...^^V

27th Jan
Happy valley
"Lou Sang" before all of us going back hometown
a reunion dinner before CNY
its so enjoyable for the fun that we having together
a simple gathering close up the relations wif each other
a happy gathering generate unforgettable memories in my mind
what a sweet moment for me
O(∩_∩)O~


28th Jan 
Jogoya @ Starhill
a unplanned activity in the event list wow ...im really is a "asli"
never go for this buffet even i have been studied @ KL for 2yrs
swt =="
it is an invitation at the beginning
ermm ~~
abit shameful after the bullshit crazy things happened
i know im "playing the fire"
is dangerous
but im stil join it at the end
but no regret at all
is just i have tasted the delicious food n alcohol that i never try before
having a supper buffet with Jogoya's BOSS
it's really nice
of course  !!!
nice food sure be the couple of nice alcohol
good ...!!!
im voiceless again becz of this perfect combination
its so funny a sexy man voice can be found on me .... =P

29th Jan
Last working day
so energetic even i jz sleep for 2hrs
it just because im going to back to my sweet home after check out form work
yup ...!!!
is in HOME now ....
the most important place for me in my life
the only place that i can reenergize myself
i feel WARM when back to my sweet home
so so so so so happy today
there is a miracle
i get back my gold anklet which is lost in Oct
horray ...\(^o^)/

dad...
i really hope that there will be miracle
a miracle that u will come back to us one day
what a funny and idiot wish i have
stupid me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
waiting for March
so we can go for visit u to have a "special" reunion
CNY is around the corner
but u are nt here anymore
no more reunion dinner this year onwards
im so so so so so so so sad .......
dad...
may u rest in peace
really missing u so much !!!!!!!! T.T

25 January 2011

放纵

这一晚
好想好想灌醉自己
解开一切的束缚
好让我那压抑的情绪
完完全全的
放纵
多希望
疯狂的身心
疯狂的动作
能将我一切的不开心
抛到脑后
只想好好享受属于自己的快乐
做回原本的那个我

奈何
酒精麻醉不了
那失落的情绪
最终
这没用的酒精
却使我更加的清醒
回想起让我心痛难过的事


酒精
加速我的心跳
情绪随着那波动的心跳
失控了

又再一次
在公共场合
丢了自己的脸
坚强吗?????
不........
我一点也不...

放纵
只想麻醉自己
可惜
麻醉不了
却让自己个更伤心

承认
我好执着
真的放不开
你已离去的事实
回忆你
让我好疲惫
多希望这是
一个玩笑
一个梦

好想
给自己一个理由忘记

20 January 2011

没那么简单


还记得当时
我拿着我电话里
让你选择喜欢的歌曲当铃声
最后你选择了这首歌曲
属于你的歌

现在
每当我一听见这首歌
我的心
就会有被刺痛的感觉

好多人说
回忆是甜蜜的
无可否认
你带给我好多难忘记甜蜜的回忆
但同时
那些曾有的回忆
对我来说
是那么的苦涩

不想你
真的没那么简单

16 January 2011

电视剧▪感触

< 天天好天 >
内容很写实
一部讲述珍惜亲情的本地电影

很普通的电影
却是我的眼泪不停的留下
让我感触的戏剧情节
使我想一位在我生命中很重要的亲人
爸爸

"小女孩问:人会活到多少岁?妈妈说: 70多80岁吧~"
爸爸还有20多年的时间才到这岁数
但他已不在了
我哭了

“儿子骑着摩托
赶上正要离开城市的爸爸
临走前 爸爸对他说:自己要小心照顾自己啊”
爸爸对我说的最后一句话
和这一句一模一样
我哭了


“小女孩独自一个人荡着秋千
望着旁边空无一人的秋千而哭了”
想起我们共有的回忆
但你已经不在我身旁
我哭了

“老师去安老院探望一位没有血缘关系的老伯伯
说了一句话:子欲养而亲不在”
当我又能力赚钱养家
是时候让你享福时
你却没这个福气
并离我们而去
我哭了

流泪
并非是我眼浅
而是勾起太多让我伤心的事情

因为你
我真的忘了自己哭了多少次
包括现在的我
告诉自己要看开
因为这已经成为了事实
但我还是接受不到你的离开
结果却是哭得更凶
真的好没用

 好心痛

15 January 2011

黑眼圈

才工作一个多月
但那日夜颠倒的工作时间
已经是我变成了熊猫的后裔

有时望着镜子里的我
也会把自己吓了一跳
那黑眼圈
真的很够力

如果长期的活在这生活中
真不能想象自己的身子会有多糟糕

真是赚钱艰难啊~~~~~~

12 January 2011

极差

今天工作超没心情
现在又想起了你
听着你一手关于你的歌曲
心情极差极差
如果你还在
那该多好
只可惜
这不会实现了

爸~~~~
你能不能到我梦里
与我相见
即使是虚幻的梦境
我也甘愿
因为我真的好想你
好想你

11 January 2011

Home Made

结束一天的工作
回到房间
一个热水澡
一杯热咖啡
加上
妈妈自己制作的烘饼
足以让我那已疲惫的身心
放松

好难才会吃得到的"kuih kah bet"  因为只有在农历新年 妈妈才会亲手制作   yummy !!


on leave 在家期间 就是这些好吃又热气的家伙 差点把我弄生病去 因为我拼命一直一直吃


09 January 2011

你的笑容

调派到新的部门工作
真的有点不习惯
新事物
什么都要从头学起
俗语说得好
“万事起头难啊”

想起妈妈
相比之下
觉得自己工作的辛苦都不算什么大事

要早点让妈妈退休享福
就要加把劲去学习了
还是那句老土的话
加油努力吧

lovely mum + me @ sweet home, 6/1/11

你的笑容
给我推动力
让我努力去兑现我许下的承诺与愿望
我 ❤ 妈妈

03 January 2011

❤ 家

不知不觉
已工作了一个月了
也终于放假
回到了我温暖的家


让我卸下工作紧绷的神经
让我抛开心头上的大石
让我不受任何事束缚
让我做回自己
让我感觉好舒服好温暖

我回到了家
但他却走了
看见妈妈
一个经历那么多伤痛的女人
身为儿女
告诉自己要比她更坚强
不会忘记自己对她的承诺
也要更加更加爱她
更加更加孝顺她保护她

没什么能比得上
我的家
我的亲人
对家的爱
是天赋的责任

要实现愿望
努力吧~~~

01 January 2011

位置

新的一年
新的一天
但我仍是旧的心情
一点也不开心

如果有一天
一个没生命的游戏让你失去一位有情感的人
你会后悔吗 会心痛吗.........?????

不会.....
因为它早已超越我的位置....
心痛的人却是自己.....!!

好想家
好想爸爸!!!!!!!

2010 → 2011

2010
i hate 2010 ......................
what a sadness year for me
nothing special on new year eve
i hate the date with 31st
especially my birthday month
u are gone .....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nothing sweet memories left to me in 2010
the reasons all are bcz of u
even the memories are sweet enough
it will let me cry sometime
especially the moment with u ......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why u want to to be like that .....!!!!!!
u know those are ur beloved are getting hurt jz bcz u ...
u know i hate u when im alone and thinking about u ...
u will never know i have so many regrets since u are nt here anymore
i dont want to cry
i dont wanna be like that
i wish i will be strong
but i cant control myself
is really really bad i cant
im stil asking " why "even tough it is a fact
the fact is u are never come back to us anymore....

2011
i wish ....
save more money as i can
let mummy retired earlier
wont let mummy get hurt anymore
buy a house @ 2013
bring mummy traveling once a year
getting slim
family members can reunion one day
doing well in my bf job and my job
all my my family , relatives and frenz stay healthier happier
our relationship long lasting
cut out my hot temperature
love my home infinity
appreciating those people around me and those who given help for me

WISH EVERYTHING GOES SMOOTHLY @ 2011 ❤