uncontrollable

getting emotion uncontrollably 

  every time recall back our memories

i cant control my tears to fill up my eyes in anytime and anywhere

dad 

i hav lost so many things when u gone

a family without dad

im sad

no one wil scold me when the time i wake up late

im sad

 giving up my 1st job which u are so happy that i being employed by the company 

im sad

look at the fruit trees that u plant in the whole farm 

im sad

seeing mum always viewing ur funeral photo 

im sad

too many things make me sad

the only reason is jz bcz u are gone n never come back to us again

when talking the matters about u

im look steady n strong 

but

nobody knows my heart is bleeding at the same time

nobody knows i did cry secretly

im sad

even chatting with mum

i just showing her a smile all the time 

i cant let mum see my bad emotion that will increase her sadness

i wanna her happy all the time without any doubt and trouble

i need to do it

i must do it

because im her child

Time can take away something unpleasant

we are trying to begin new life without u

we need time

when seeing my emotions out of control 

 just let me be

because

i need time

hope time can passes quickly

so that crying wont be my emotional release anymore