health problem

look like a piggy today
sleeping almost for whole day
feeling so tired and no energy at all
sleepy all the time
only stick to the bed and fall asleep
i hate it cz make me cant do anythings
because im sick
what the hell of my body this month
already visited the doctor for 3 times
hormone detuning make me bleeding non stop - doctor said im too stress recently
red measles - ithcy all the time till i used different kind ways to stop it
flu - cant breath easily, even cant switch on the fan, i hate hot, damn it
sore throat - can speak loudly ang hard to swallowing
I HATE SICK

uncontrollable

getting emotion uncontrollably 

  every time recall back our memories

i cant control my tears to fill up my eyes in anytime and anywhere

dad 

i hav lost so many things when u gone

a family without dad

im sad

no one wil scold me when the time i wake up late

im sad

 giving up my 1st job which u are so happy that i being employed by the company 

im sad

look at the fruit trees that u plant in the whole farm 

im sad

seeing mum always viewing ur funeral photo 

im sad

too many things make me sad

the only reason is jz bcz u are gone n never come back to us again

when talking the matters about u

im look steady n strong 

but

nobody knows my heart is bleeding at the same time

nobody knows i did cry secretly

im sad

even chatting with mum

i just showing her a smile all the time 

i cant let mum see my bad emotion that will increase her sadness

i wanna her happy all the time without any doubt and trouble

i need to do it

i must do it

because im her child

Time can take away something unpleasant

we are trying to begin new life without u

we need time

when seeing my emotions out of control 

 just let me be

because

i need time

hope time can passes quickly

so that crying wont be my emotional release anymore

 

 

 

父女情...

爸...
你不留一子一句就离开了我们
为什么你走的那么突然
到现在 有些时候我都还以为
你只是去了外头几天 两三天后就会回家了
但每次看到神桌摆着你的遗照时
现实告诉我 你是永远都不会回来了
你可否知道 我心好痛 好想你 好想什么事情也没发生过
为什么当我正要投入社会工作 证明我已经长大有能力赚钱给家的时候
你走了
为什么你劳碌了大半辈子 到了正要开始享儿女福的时候
你却走了
你知不知到 我有多遗憾
好心酸我们的父女情缘 是那么的短暂
答应过自己不要流泪
也曾换个角度想 是时候让你真正的休息了 无须再为任何事担忧
好怀念你的笑骂声
每当想起我们共有的回忆时
眼泪已布满我的眼眶
无力再埋怨
只愿来生再续父女情
爸...
真的好想你...